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Zoltan's Garden (Intro)
00:26
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dun nun nun nun dun nun nun nun nun nun nun
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I'VE GOT A LOT OF HOPE CALL ME CRAZY
BUT YOU HELP ME COPE WHEN WE'RE BOTH ACTING LAZY
I'VE BEEN FEELING LIKE A GHOST AWAY FROM WHO I LOVE MOST
I'M ISOLATED AGAIN BY MYSELF AND BY MY FRIENDS
OH GOD FUCKING HELP ME
HEAD STRONG BEATS HEART STRONG
BUT IVE BEEN HERE TOO LONG
AND YOU SENT OUT SIGNALS THAT WERE NOTHING BUT WRONG
I GAVE MY HEART TO A BRICK WALL THAT HATES ME
BUT I'M STUCK HERE SMILING CAUSE WHATS HAPPENING LATELY
SO YOU'LL KEEP TO YOURS AND I'LL KEEP TO MINE
CAUSE MY GIRL IS THE SWEETEST THAT I'LL EVER MEET IN MY LIFE
AND IF YOU WANNA HATE ME WELL THEN I CANT REALLY STOP YOU
I JUST HOPE IT GETS BETTER SOMEDAY
AND THE LIES YOU TOLD JUST PROVE THAT I KNOW NOTHING
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Confidence
02:12
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YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO WAIT SO LONG
I'LL BE THERE EVENTUALLY
I DIDN'T HAVE TO WRITE THESE SONGS
IT'S JUST HOW IT PLAYED OUT FOR ME
AND IT SEEMS LIKE EVERY OTHER DAY
THERE'S ANOTHER PROBLEM
BUT I CAN'T HANDLE IT ANYMORE THAN YOU CAN
WHY CAN'T WE JUST GET ALONG LIKE WE USED TO
WHY CAN'T WE JUST GET ALONG LIKE THE GOOD OL' DAYS
NOTHING FEELS AS INTERESTING OR EVEN JUST AS FUN
WITHOUT MY LOVE
WOAH
FEEL MY WOBBLY SELF
HE'S GOT NO CONFIDENCE
KEEP YOUR FINGERS CROSSED
AND PRAY WE'LL GET OUT THIS
BUT I DON'T THINK WE CAN
WHEN WE DON'T EVEN HAVE A PLAN
TO CLEAN THIS UP
WOAH
WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WHEN EVERY ROAD LEADS BACK TO YOU
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Hubris
03:22
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I'VE BEEN SPENDING SO MUCH TIME ON MY OWN
I'VE GOT NO WHERE LEFT TO GO
I'VE GOT NO WHERE LEFT TO GO
YOU CAN DO ANYTHING BY YOURSELF
YOU DON'T NEED SOMEBODY'S HELP
I HATE THE DISTANCE CAN'T YOU TELL
I FIND OUT THE HARDEST WAYS EVERY TIME
BUT I CAN'T HATE MY LIFE
AND I CAN'T WANT TO DIE
AND
I HOPE TIME MAKES IT EASIER
BUT IT NEVER DOES
AND I JUST WANT YOU TO LOVE
I JUST WANT YOU TO LOVE ME
OOO
I CAN'T FIND THE RIGHT STATE OF MIND
TO SEND ME TO SLEEP TONIGHT
SEND ME TO SLEEP TONIGHT
I CAN'T SLEEP WITHOUT YOU BY MY SIDE
SO I'LL JUST CLOSE MY EYES
AND I'LL SAY GOODBYE
I HOPE TIME MAKES IT EASIER
BUT IT NEVER DOES
AND I JUST WANT YOU TO LOVE
I JUST WANT YOU TO LOVE ME
YOU THINK YOU ARE ANNOYING.
THAT'S MADE UP
CAUSE I JUST WANT YOU TO BUG
I LOVE IT WHEN YOU BUG ME
I JUST WANT YOU TO LOVE ME
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Bilbo Baggage
03:24
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YOU ALWAYS SAID I WAS WRONG
NOW I AM STUCK HERE WRITING SONGS ABOUT YOU
I KNOW I WON'T LAST VERY LONG
I REGRET EVERYTHING I HAVE DONE
BUT IT WON'T FIX A THING
NOT WITHOUT A TIME MACHINE
IT WON'T FIX A THING
END MY MISERY ALREADY
AND I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU DIDN'T FEEL GUILTY
THE UGLIEST TRUTH WAS STANDING RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME
AND YOU COULDN'T LISTEN TO MY BEGGING
NOW I FEEL LOST NO IDEA WHERE I'M HEADING
I JUST WANNA WALK YOU HOME
ALL THE WAY FROM MY HOUSE
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Handsfree
03:47
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MUST'VE BEEN SOMETHING IN YOUR EYES
REALLY KNOCKED THE WIND OUT OF ME
AND I'LL SPEND MY WHOLE LIFE RECOVERING
THE INNOCENCE IN WALKING DOWN SOME STAIRS
UNFINISHED MAKEUP WITH HALF DONE HAIR
SOMETHING ABOUT THIS IS REALLY GETTING ME
YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO GO BACK UP
LEAVING ME FEELING SO DUMB
I HATE THE WAY THAT THINGS HAVE TO BE
I STARTED TO THINK ABOUT MY LIFE
HOW I ENDED UP HERE TONIGHT
THINKING ABOUT THIS IS REALLY GETTING ME
I CAN TELL FROM THE LOOK IN YOUR EYES
THAT I AM ALREADY WASTING MY TIME
KNOCKED OUT BY THE SMALLEST THOUGHT OF SUCCESS
MY MINDS IN DISARRAY
I SWEAR TO YOU I'M NOT OKAY
I CAUGHT A GLIMPSE OF HOW YOU LOOK IN THAT DRESS
AND I COULD'VE DONE SOMETHING WHILE YOU WERE DOWN HERE
I HAVEN'T GOT THE HEART
I COULD'VE BEEN SOMEONE BUT I AM NOBODY
ITS THE LEAST SUSPENSEFUL PART
YOU DON'T OWE ME ANYTHING I REALLY WANT YOU TO SEE
YOU SHOULD COME HANG OUT WITH ME I WANT IT SO DESPERATELY
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Where'd You Go
03:14
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YOU AND I HAVE QUITE A WAYS TO GO
WE KEEP LOOKING BACK BEHIND US AND
KICKING OUR OWN FEET WHILE WE WALK
WHY CAN'T WHY CAN'T WHY CAN'T WE JUST TALK
I'LL ADMIT I'VE GOT MY PROBLEMS AND
YOU'VE GOT YOURS TOO
WE BOTH WANNA SOLVE THEM SO WHAT DO WE DO
I NEED AN ANGEL
I NEED OMNIPOTENCE
I NEED SOMEONE TO TELL ME HOW THE FUCK
TO GET OUT OF THIS
I STEP ONE FOOT TOO FAR TOO GONE
AND YOU MADE SURE THAT I PAID FOR IT
I LOOK INSIDE THE SAME BLUE EYES
I USED TO TAKE COMFORT IN
WHERE'D YOU GO
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GIVING ME THE CREEPS IN MID SEPTEMBER
YOU'RE MAKING ME THINK IT'S OCTOBER 31ST
YOU'RE COMING BACK TO MY HOUSE
BUT IF I RECALL YOU THINK I'M THE FUCKING WORST
OH HOW MANY TIMES SHOULD I SAY IT TO GET IT
THROUGH YOUR THICK SKULL
I'M ALONE WITHOUT YOU
OH I COULD REACH OUT TO HEAVEN AND JUST GET REJECTED
JUST BREATHE AND BE CHILL
IT'LL ALL BE OVER SOONER THAN YOU WANT IT TO
SO THE YEARS GO BEHIND ME
I SHOULD FOCUS MORE ON WHAT'S IN FRONT OF ME
YOU SAY YOU'RE WASTING YOUR TIME HERE
I'LL CATCH YOU ON THE FLIP SIDE OF EVERYTHING
IT'S SAD YOU GIVE ME DIRECTION
AND I LOOK TO YOU FOR ADVICE
BUT WHEN THE SUN GOES DOWN AND SO DOES YOUR HEAD
I KNOW IT'S JUST ONE OF THOSE NIGHTS
IT'S JUST ONE OF THOSE NIGHTS
OH I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHICH WAY YOU'RE COMING FROM
IT'S HARD TO TELL WHEN YOU RAISE YOU'RE VOICE
IT'S TIME TO YELL
OH YOU GOT ME IN SUCH A FUCKING CHOKE HOLD I CANT BREATHE
YEAH!
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Squib
03:08
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I FEEL YOU SO CLOSE TO ME
BUT WE'LL BOTH BE OKAY
YOU AND I HAD SOMETHING SPECIAL
AND I'LL THINK ABOUT IT EVERYDAY
I SEE YOU REACH OUT FOR ME
AND I REALLY WANT TO SAY
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING
AND I THINK ABOUT YOU EVERYDAY
I DON'T CARE IF THEY TAKE MY HOME
THE EMPTY POCKETS I'VE ALWAYS KNOWN
BUT WHEN THEY PUT ME IN THE GROUND
I HOPE YOU'LL BE MISSING ME
SO TIMES GET TOUGH AND MOODS GROW COLD
I DON'T MIND IF WE GROW OLD
AND WHEN THEY PUT ME IN THE GROUND
I HOPE YOU'LL BE MISSING ME
DO YOU WANNA DIE
OR ARE YOU JUST NOT LIVING YOUR LIFE RIGHT?
DO YOU WANNA DIE
OR ARE YOU JUST NOT LIVING YOUR LIFE RIGHT?
I'VE GOT A WHOLE OTHER END IN SIGHT
I DON'T WANNA FIGHT BUT I WILL IF I HAVE TO
DO YOU WANNA DIE
OR ARE YOU JUST NOT LIVING YOUR LIFE RIGHT?
I'VE WAITED TOO LONG TO FEEL ALRIGHT
IF YOU GIVE UP THEN I JUST MIGHT
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June Buggin
03:16
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A COUPLE YEARS GO BY AND I STAY THE SAME
THE ONLY CHANGE THAT I HAVE IS WHEN I GO INSANE
YOU CAN KEEP ME IN THE PAST
BUT YOU'RE NEVER SAFE
NO YOU'RE NEVER SAFE
AND EVERY MOVEMENT THAT YOU MAKE
IS IN A SELFISH STATE
I WAS WRONG TO THINK THAT WORDS
WOULD TAKE THE PAIN AWAY
YOU CAN ACT LIKE YOU DON'T CARE ANYMORE
BUT WE BOTH KNOW THINGS DON'T CHANGE
I CAN HARDLY FUCKING BREATHE
TELL MY FUTURE FAMILY I LOVE THEM
CAUSE I HAVE NOTHING LEFT TO GIVE
BUT I CAN GIVE MY TIME TO SEE
THAT MY FRIENDS WANNA LIVE
HOW HARD IS TO CARE WHEN NOBODY CARES
ABOUT ME
HOW HARD IS IT TO LEARN THAT LONELINESS
WILL NEVER DEFINE ME
HOW HARD IS IT TO THINK ABOUT HOW I FEEL
WHEN YOU DON'T FEEL
HOW LONG WILL IT TAKE TO FILL THAT SPACE
THAT'S EMPTY
I KNOW YOU SEE ME CRY
YOU'RE LIKE A POKEMON TRAINER
WITH HOW HARD YOU LOCK EYES
AND I JUST WANNA DIE
I WISH I HAD HANDLE SO
I COULD TAKE CONTROL OF MY LIFE
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American Comfort Food
03:08
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DO I REALLY HAVE TO TELL YOU
THAT IT'S NOT OKAY TO RUN
BECAUSE IT'S GETTING SO OLD
AND I DON'T REALLY WANNA HAVE TO
GO WALKING HOME IN THE RAIN
BECAUSE IT NEVER RAINS HERE
IT JUST RAINS IN ME
I'M AFRAID TO SAY
WHAT BOTHERED ME THAT DAY
I'M SICK OF PUSHING YOU AWAY
I'M ASHAMED TO SAY
THAT I DON'T FEEL OKAY
I'M SORRY YOU GOT PUSHED AWAY
YOU SCREAM OUT LOUD THAT YOU HATE ME
YOU SAY I RUINED YOUR LIFE
BUT YOU KNOW WE'RE GONNA SAY THAT "I LOVE YOU"
AS SOON AS WE'RE DONE WITH THE FIGHT
AND YOU WANTED US TO BE TOGETHER
AND I WASN'T READY TO LOVE
I KNOW YOU'LL DO BETTER
I'M AFRAID TO SAY
WHAT BOTHERED ME THAT DAY
I'M SICK OF PUSHING YOU AWAY
I'M ASHAMED TO SAY
THAT I DON'T FEEL OKAY
I'M SORRY YOU GOT PUSHED AWAY
YOU'LL FIND YOUR LIGHT
WHEN YOU'RE UP AT NIGHT
AND MY FEAR SUBSIDES
BECAUSE I KNOW
WE'RE SUPPOSED TO LIVE SEPARATE LIVES
AND THOSE TWO EYES
SURE SAY A LOT WHILE YOU JUST HEAVY SIGH
YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO TRY
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The Opener
02:18
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OPEN UP YOUR CLOSED HEART BABY
OPEN UP AGAIN WOULD YOU MAYBE
GIVE ME ALL THE REASONS TO SAY
I LOVE YOU
KEEP YOUR HEAD ON
IT'S THE ONLY THING YOU'VE GOT
I'LL LEAVE THE LIGHT ON
FOR WHENEVER YOU GET BACK
AND I'M NERVOUS
SO FUCKING NERVOUS THAT I SHAKE
I AM WEAK WITHOUT YOU HERE
CAUSE I GIVE UP ON EVERYTHING
I CANT HELP BUT THINK OF YOU
CAUSE YOU'RE BETTER THAN ANYTHING
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Cat Boy
03:38
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I WANNA BE LIKE CAT BOY
I WANNA BE SOMETHING YOU MADE UP
I WANNA FIND THE RIGHT WAY
NO MORE HAVERING WHEN THINGS GET TOUGH
BUT THINGS GET SO HARD
WHEN YOU'VE GOT THAT PERFECT SMILE
PLEASE STAY A WHILE
OR AT LEAST JUST PROMISE ME YOU WONT GO
AND I'LL KEEP WAITING
EVEN THOUGH YOU'RE RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME
AND I'LL KEEP WAITING
EVEN THOUGH MY LIFE IS NEVER GONNA BE
AND I'LL KEEP WAITING
I JUST HOPE YOU SEE THE BEST OF ME
AND I'LL KEEP WAITING
CAUSE YOU REALLY SEEM LIKE YOU WANT THE REST OF ME
HOW CAN I
LOOK YOU IN THE EYES
WHEN I'M NOT FINE AND I WANNA DIE
AND I REALLY JUST WANT YOU BY MY SIDE
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Proxxydust Ventura, California
Proxxydust is a project started by Zoltan Youtz in Ventura, California and relocated to Roseburg, Oregon. It is a blend of happy chiptune sounds with sad pop punk vocals and rhythm guitar. Made to represent the chaotic and emotional mind of Zoltan, it is a blend of several emotions that relate to day to day life struggling with mental health, relationships, inner demons and existentialism. Enjoy! ... more
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